Confused

I was and I am so happy today, because I finished my course for Lifeguard Beach. I am so proud at myself, because I thought I would not make it. But now, after the bbq and the party, I am so confused
I dont know what to do... pfff *sighs* why can life be so difficult sometimes. Sometimes,  I even hate my life. I dont know why,  'cause I.. I just dont know really. -xx- Seezz